felt better at work today..at least i didnt have the constantly urge to cry..yeah yesterday was pretty bad..i felt pretty depressed..but well thanx to ppl like Yunz and LiL OnE..everything soon past quickly.. a brand new day today..although the matter hasnt really been resolved yat but i did feel really chirpy and smiley today..probably cuz i felt guilty for my unhappiness yesterday.. ppl around me really dont deserve the gloomy attitude i had.. how could i ever be so selfish.. i feel so bad whenever i think of it.. but Me..i'm bacK ;)
i do miss him..
whenever i think of how he makes me laugh, i feel so happy.. he is really very observant and thoughtful..
VeRy..i guess thats what made me..haiz have to admit it..what made me fall for him.. but the very scene of him doin' what he did that night pops out now and then..and it makes me very very upset..
'thong..' my heart jz literally dropped..sank..wadeva..i felt it..itz like a feeling of disappointment, betrayal and a little anger..
itz not totally his fault. itz mine..maybe i shld have asked..maybe i shld have made it clear..or maybe i shldnt likedd him in the first place..but the truth is i didnt know i fell for him too..until Yunz told me..it kinda came as a shock..jz dawned on me..that yeah..i do kinda like him..
but i still kinda feel betrayed..not by anyone..jz betrayed by time..by reality.. dont u think itz cruel to have me fall for someone only to tell me he possesses the number one thing i cant stand about a person..or rather a person whom i'm to choose to be with..
i dont know what to do anymore..i feel he doesnt care much..
i dont want to be the only one sitting there crying.
but thats exactly whats happening.
