kor asked me to ask mummy again. and he says he'll give me till monday to give him an answer. i already know what the answer is. and its obvious its not possible i can go with him. mummy will think i'm crazy and then she'll tell daddy and daddy will think i'm crazy.
i dont know how to give him an answer such that he'll understand. i dont wanna tell him on monday becuz thats his special day. but i cant bare to tell him now either arrghz..help...
i'm aging so quickly these days over stuff like that..and the fact that i'm having trouble getting a gift for him plus the piling homework..plus the fact that i'm drifting from everyone i love..-_-'''
watching survivor now..while the mental picture of piling work forms at the back of my mind.
- Assignment 3 for Craft of writing
- industrial report
- industrial project
- paul yip's book
- tutorials
there must be so much more but they just dont register in my brain..maybe its cuz i dont want to remember them..the brain's really powerful..sometimes it makes u feel better by making u forget stuff u have to do..and then it makes u go crazy when u suddenly remember u have to do it just before dateline..or it makes u wanna kill urself when u finally find out u havent done it after the dateline.
this sem's driving me nuts..partly cuz i haven been as hardworking as i shld have been. i so want it to be over but at the same time i dont wanna go through the exams cuz i think i'll do badly in it..sheesh..wad is this the paradox of human nature or sthing?
the lyrics of this song by eason caught my eye. and i think its quite a nice song.
兄妹
对我好 对我好 好到无路可退
可是我也很想 有个人陪
才不愿把你得罪 于是那么迂回
一时进 一时退 保持安全范围
这个阴谋让我 好惭愧
享受被爱滋味 却不让你想入非非
＊就让我们虚伪 有感情 别浪费
不能相爱的一对 亲爱像两兄妹
爱让我们虚伪 我得到 于事无补的安慰
你也得到模仿爱上一个人的机会
残忍也不失慈悲 这样的关系你说 多完美＊
眼看你 看着我 看得那么暧昧被爱
爱人原来一样可悲为什么竟然防备
别人给我献媚不能退 不能要 要了怕你误会
让我想起曾经 爱过谁 我所要的她不给
好像小偷一样卑微