Its been so long since i've felt like blogging.. ever since i started my internship, every night has been tiring and every day shortlived.. Its such an irony cuz when i'm busy i go crazy with so many things on hand and so little time to do.. but when i'm not, i go crazy trying to find things to do and time passes so slowly..
I get scared sometimes to go to work.. cuz it seems no matter how hard i try, how conscientious i am, i always miss out on sthing.. and i make mistakes which i think i should not be doing.. its like i'm trying hard to prove myself.. somehow some things overseen always kinda "discounts back" my effort. (biz finance..HA)
Its hard to please everyone there.. and i try not to display my emotions.. when i'm pissed i find it hard to smile.. no.. i find it impossible to smile.. which isnt good.. cuz my colleagues can see.. and its not very professional..i wish i could be like Pamela.. cuz she's so pro at handling everything.. saying all the right things.. knowing all the right things.. and even the wrong ones.. lolz..
ok i aim to be like her.. when i hit 25.. i will be like her! Roar!!
I must be gung-ho and do all the things that everyone else doesnt wanna do.. hard work leads to success!! HEey.. i shouldnt be leaking out this advice to all.. lolz..
anyway i hope tmr will be a mistake-free day.. all will be happy.. Noo.. how could we be happy.. Chris is leaving us!! to a small island where there are no computers or paperwork to be done.. no phones to answer and no gates to open.. an island called Bintan..sian.. i lost my lunch-cum-toilet-cum-goinghometogether-mate to a small floating piece of land.
roar. time to check email. i miss my friends. and they are starting the new semester soon.. without me!! =(
