i've been thinking about my relationship with people around me.
since i dyed my hair.. people dont recognize me anymore...its amazing how i can look at them and they can just walk right past me without realising its me ;/
people judge other people. i guess i do too. and i'll try my best not to anymore..
i'm saying this because people judge me too. i know it. and the feeling is not good at all. i dont know why we do it. what..is it human nature? i guess so.. or is that just an excuse for this abhorrent behavior of ours. i mean you dont just conclude without first knowing whats the truth. but of course to different people the truth might just be, well, different.
But we shouldnt judge them and then decide on ur own what they deserve. i guess the old me would have said ' ur behavior is irritating the h*ll out of me. dont be such a bit*h.i dont f***ing deserve it ok'..plus a lot more expletives here and there..yeah u get the idea.
ok..i admit when i was regarding this issue i had a lot of emotions and anger in me and i was half about to have my thoughts starting in such a manner but fortunately i stopped myself in time and calmed down enough to think rationally. so i guess i'd say i wont judge people or at least i'll try.. because people will ultimately do back to you what u did to them..it happens..so.
but i guess even if people around me..like those i'm not that close to.. even if i feel i've been treated unfairly..i'll try to do whats right instead of just lashing out and basically do what i used to do. and i wont use emotive words and phrases when i'm mad. yeah i used to say things like ' i hate him..he such a blah blah blah toots toots toots censor censor censor'
thinking back.why did i. i guess this is just a start to being a better person. it wont feel good at times. but i'll do my best. its not easy keeping my temper in check. swallowing my pride. but i'll do it. ;D
