you know how they say couples break up because they forgot the reason they fell in love with each other. i always thought it was very true. so whenever i was angry with my bf, i'd think of this line and i would always think of the many reasons i fell in love with him.
somehow this doesnt work anymore. whenever i try to think of why i fell i love with him, my heart doesnt want me to and my brain blocks off all thoughts regarding to that and i think about something else.
i dont feel anger anymore. its just hurt and it brings tears to my eyes just like that. and i feel that the issues that used to make me angry dont bother me that much anymore.. one day my heart would be numb to all these. one day i'd care no more. and even if you left me, i might not even feel a thing.
i'll just have to bear with the pain for now..and i'll be okay.
