how do take away the pain of the heart ? i'm like effing sure no one can answer that. they say time heals all wounds. i sincerely believe that. but how long? my heart's in discomfort. i wouldnt say its in pain..it has been for too long i thought everything would have juz died off..or that any similar kind of hurt would just be indifferent to me.
but i guess this is sthing new. i think i've been living in a lie. i always pictured my situation to be a very drama-like story. that someone sent u away..and itz like she's unknowingly the evil one rite.. but no..she doesnt matter anymore..bcuz i guess u no longer have ur heart over here.. i always thought that maybe u'd be missing me over there as well. but no. i guess i'm the only one. so much for being hopeful. so much for constantly thinking what u were doing, whether u were ok, if u were still the same..reminiscing all the gd times bad times. but i guess this is like really so over so in the past for u. i really want this to be over as well. but somehow i'm having difficulty letting go, difficulty forgetting. a part of me doesnt want to.
at this point in time u seem so different. the one i thought i knew is really someone made up by me. i dont know you anymore Derr.
