i think it will be soon.
thinking of u used to be a joyful thing for me. happy memories. it filled me with complete joy and warmth. i thought i was loved.
thoughts of u now have turned into sthing that brings nostalgia. of sadness. a kind of betrayal. a kind of distaste. after i forget you i'd probably be laughing, no, Scorning at myself, thinking' how could u be so dumb. so naive. so stupid' but right now i'm juz in a state of being indifferent to anything..its a anaesthetic kind of feeling. everytime i start thinkin of u, my mind goes into auto-block mode. i think it keeps me from going crazy thank god.
i shouldnt hate u. i dont have any reasons to. all the hope i had in me was juz kinda created by myself in my own world.
one day i'll forget all these. no i wouldnt.i shld say one day i'll read this and not recall a single thing i'm feeling now. *smilez*
i believe in karma. but i dont believe i did anything like this to anyone. so why shld i get all these shit man. my recent posts are lacking in vulgarities. just not in the mood. just dont. want. to. bother. any.more.
